eleventh day
i haven't been blogging these few days. i haven't had the mood nor the motivation nor the inspiration to write. my body is getting weaker. at least i think so. i have not touch a grain of rice for about eleven days now and i'm planning to carry on with that. my daily food intake consists of coffee/milo in the morning and old chang kee fishball on a stick if i'm hungry. then i'd just not eat till whenever.
but i don't see the results! at least not very visible. and because i feel full almost instantly after eating something, i often feel like i'm reversing the process when i eat slightly more. i think i'm going crazy but i do feel like i'm not losing enough weight fast enough.
may 14th is drawing near and i need to be in shape. well at least on the way to being in shape by then. dance ensemble starts then so i have to make the cut! i need to show to the choreographer and senior dancers that i am in this for the long haul. dancing is and will be my passion. i've love it since i was sixteen and i'll continue loving it till the end.
not being cast for evocation '06 was a rather huge blow on me. i never thought that i wasn't good enough to be cast for the show. but when my name wasn't called it's almost as if i had been dumped into the bin. and yes, literally, the image of ally mcbeal where was dumped into the rubbish bin came into my mind. bleargh. i suppose i was out of shape. but not anymore. thus the continued popping of the pills.
eleven days. i've yet to weigh myself so i don't know if i lost any weight or not. i sure hope so or it would be such a waste of my efforts. but i am going to ask dr chinatown to give me a higher mg prescription. 15mg is too little to take any effect! i've a big body!
i'm going to be having coffee later with missJ, singerS and our mutual friend, chinaTrin. i'm contemplating a manicure session before heading down to siglap to meet them at starbucks. not sure though. maybe i'll have it tomorrow? we'll see how it goes.
but i don't see the results! at least not very visible. and because i feel full almost instantly after eating something, i often feel like i'm reversing the process when i eat slightly more. i think i'm going crazy but i do feel like i'm not losing enough weight fast enough.
may 14th is drawing near and i need to be in shape. well at least on the way to being in shape by then. dance ensemble starts then so i have to make the cut! i need to show to the choreographer and senior dancers that i am in this for the long haul. dancing is and will be my passion. i've love it since i was sixteen and i'll continue loving it till the end.
not being cast for evocation '06 was a rather huge blow on me. i never thought that i wasn't good enough to be cast for the show. but when my name wasn't called it's almost as if i had been dumped into the bin. and yes, literally, the image of ally mcbeal where was dumped into the rubbish bin came into my mind. bleargh. i suppose i was out of shape. but not anymore. thus the continued popping of the pills.
eleven days. i've yet to weigh myself so i don't know if i lost any weight or not. i sure hope so or it would be such a waste of my efforts. but i am going to ask dr chinatown to give me a higher mg prescription. 15mg is too little to take any effect! i've a big body!
i'm going to be having coffee later with missJ, singerS and our mutual friend, chinaTrin. i'm contemplating a manicure session before heading down to siglap to meet them at starbucks. not sure though. maybe i'll have it tomorrow? we'll see how it goes.
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